It would be fair to say that I've lost my way a little these past few months, a few bad habits creep in one by one. Then after a little while, you convince yourself that they're not that bad after all. Then a few more creep in, and you (again) convince yourself that they're not that bad and that you'll get back to the angelic ways soon. And anyway, when exactly is 'soon' because 'soon' never quite seems to arrive does it?
I did quite well for a while, kept going to weigh in, but not staying to class. I had many, very legitimate and honest reasons. Working late, other things to do, feeling unwell, looking after friends or poorly other half or poorly dog. And do you know what? I could carry on making excuses until Kingdom Come. I didn't really feel like going to class this week. I got home from work, I was bloody starving and to be quite honest, simply couldn't bear the thought of sitting at home for an hour waiting for class time to come round then cooking my tea when I got back home some time around 8:30pm. So, guess what I did? (Brace yourselves, because this is truly groundbreaking.) I had my tea BEFORE going to class. "What a rebel!" I hear you cry. "But you're not supposed to eat before a weigh in" I hear you silently scream at me. Yes, maybe you're not. But I figured, as I haven't weighed in for 4 weeks now, then what difference does 1 extra meal make?! (and really, I suppose, what difference would it make any other time - unless you're eating a whole cow for tea, it's really not going to make that much a of a change to your weight loss/gain, but these are the silly things we convince ourselves of).
And so off I went to class, I'd put weight on as expected, and i know why. I've been cheating and not attending class. So I'm back on the wagon. I'm spending this week trying to iron out, one-by-one, the bad habits that have crept in over the past few months and by Tuesday (the start of a new week as weigh in is Monday night) I shall be lighter (if not in body then certainly in mind) and back on the straight and narrow.
As an indicator of some of the 'cheats' and 'allowances' you make for yourself, i thought I'd list some of the bad things (see what I did there) that I've eaten/done over the past few months. Uh-oh!
- Creme egg, mini eggs, Easter egg, Malteaster bunny (they were in season!)
- Chocolate bars (Cadbury's dairy milk bubble with white chocolate centre mmmmmmmm)
- Bread (not very bad, but carries high syn value, so needs to be moderated with other bad stuff)
- Crisps
- Vanilla slices
- Ice cream sundaes (on a couple of meals out)
- Eccles cakes
- Biscuits and cookies
So there it is. I've done quite well this week. Admittedly, I've had as few more syns than I should do thought they were conscious choices and were done to use up food that we already had in the house rather than it go to waste. And each day has progressively improved over the week, so I do know that I'm heading in the right direction.
Who knows what my weight loss will be this week? As long as it's a loss, I really don't mind.
Hippy xxx
